Truth Is.

10.45pm

Truth is, I am tired and so beat that I'm sure I'll doze to dreamland the soonest I lay my head on the pillow.

Truth is, I still got gazillion of mails screaming my name, whimpering, squealing and whining for my attention in the ever so efficient Outlook mail. I secretly pray and hope that due to some satellite glitch or something whatever, tomorrow we will be facing some server problems which overall affected the company's email domain name. Ha!

Truth is, I have to be translating the script right now instead of typing this entry. But, what the hell. I wanted a break from the bloody cartoon and their unbearably childish story with no intense climax. Unfortunately, I have another 2 episodes grumbling impatiently in my lappy to be translated from English to Malay while the original video is in Japanese, which unfortunately I have to watch in order to put in the timeline. Oh did I mentioned I am a part time script translator now? Greedy much. Get rich or die trying, as 50 cent would said.

Truth is, I so desperately wanted to go squashing or swimming or jogging or just hangout and chilling with my friends. But here I am, typing away at this entry. While eating some peanuts and drinking some left-over Coke from ad-hoc picnic the other day. While wondering if I may win in the tournament this weekend.

Truth is, I am kinda homesick. I miss my parents, my grandparents, my siblings' crazyness, my cousins slapstick-ness and Alayna Zahra's cuteness. Oh yeah. Of course, the Xbox Kinect too. How can I forget the ever wonderful Kinect which bond us all together in the ever competitive games of either about snots or lewd dance or the athletic games.

Truth is, I should end this now or I may not be able to get anything done. Oh well.


P/s : Truth is...IMY. And that's the truth :)

another ......

2.30pm

Tak pelah. Saya bahagia tengok awak bahagia.

Sungguh. Tak tipu!

*senyum*

Okai, fine. Saya tipu.

T_T

........

5.45pm

Nak gaduh lama-lama saya tak pandai. Serius tak pandai. Terpulanglah nak cakap saya nie loser ker, hati tak kering ker, lembik ker, tapi nak buat macam mana, saya memang macam nie. Mama, Ibu, Abah dan adik-beradik semua tahu. Hurmm..dah nak masuk 2 minggu dah. When kamu baca nie and nak cakap saya obses, attention seeker or anything lah yang teruk-teruk, busuk-busuk tu, ikot suka lah ya, I dunt give a damn. Orang cakap ikhlas tu memang orang tak pandai nak nilai. Tak pe lah, saya tak kisah, awak kan partner in crime saya. Kenapa nak terasa sangat kan? Saya ikhlas kawan dengan awak. Feeling-feeling tu, tolak tepi. Walaupun I did said, life goes on with or without you and saya happy jer walaupun beraktiviti tanpa awak, tapi...hurmmm..just so you know,

Yeah, it is, partner. Tak da orang yang tahan kena gigit dengan saya. Huuu~

Takpelah, saya men jongkang-jongket sorang-sorang jelah. Awak dah ada kawan baru ramai kan? 

*pasrah*

(^^)y

Terima Kasih

4.42 pm

Sampai satu tahap kita akan rasa penat nak sabar dan penat nak sedih-sedih. Okai, fine. Jika itu akan buat awak happy, maka silalah pergi berbahagia. Kata-kata awak tu bak kata pepatah, lebih tajam dari pedang. Cuba imagine pedang samurai tu, yelah, yang panjang dan tajam gilaaaaa tu, memotong daging batang pinang dengan sekali kuis jer. Hebat kan? Dan daging tu pun terputus dua. Hoorayyyy~ jum buat steak!

Mari main squash sampai pengsan.

P/s : Ini adalah life saya. So what if life saya bukan menghabiskan duet tengok movie and shopping and pegi meng-kaya-kan tauke kompleks membeli-belah? My life is cool in its own way. I don't depend on you to be happy. So you think I'll be unhappy when you're not around and my life is all about you? TAK YAH LAH PERASAN SANGAT, OKAI. Mungkin akan terasa sedikit suram, sebab we're happy when are around one another. But then, heyy..life goes on kan?

(^^)y

you smile, i smile.

eh, iye ke? whatever.

Alhamdulillah.

Terima kasih Tuhan. Di kala kekusutan otak melanda, kerja ada banyak.

Distraction.

I need that.

Terima kasih Tuhan. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Bila?

3.25pm

Bila? Bila? Bila nak update pasal pegi Phuket tu?? Bila? Arrghhhhh..banyak sangat cerita. Plus gambar yang best. Macam panjanggggggg~ Bila nak update pun tak taw lahai. Isk!

Nantilah update, bila rajin. Ahaks! Cheers~

(^^)y

All I want To Do

6.10pm

One day in my life, I just wanna play squash till I am beat, then jump into the pool/swimming in the ocean, went hiking and eat and eat. All the while with those I love. Laughing like an idiot. Feeling carefree and worry-free. Nothing can makes me feel miserable.

I just want to be happy. Carefree. Like I use to be. I missed my old self. Now I am just a messed up fool.

Happiness.

Please Ya Allah?

Post Sunday Blues

2.45pm

Sedang menghadap PC sambil makan nasik lauk ayam goreng dan sayur campur. With no nafsu at all. Baru saya perasan, semalam seharian saya tak makan. Kusut punya pasal..saya lupa saya nak pegi Sg. Gabai dengan member-member. Pagi ne datang ofis kepala macam berpusing-pusing. Huhu. And sepantas kilat (cewahh..kilat tu!), saya taw dah, ne sure blood pressure saya low. Datang ofis pun dah lewat, overslept punya pasal and honestly, I wish I didn't come at all sebab makin kusut. Hmm..nasik dalam polystrene dikuis-kuis..yang masuk mulut tak sampai separuh pun. Thanx Nawar and Syira sebab tolong belikan nasik ne. I really appreciate it.. =)

Saya tak taw apa yang patut saya lakukan sekarang berkenaan dengan perkara yang mengusutkan ini. I called my friends, offering them no explaination what-so-ever as of why I am crying cam ribut di telefon. Granted my housemate were not around and lagilah macam nak gila sorang-sorang di rumah. Macam susah ja nak explain kekusutan itu..the most when they asked me what is wrong, saya senyap and cried again. Sebab, I don't know how to explain in details and pour my heart out. So I pour my eyes out saje lah..Huhuhu~ Sampai bengkak macam mata katak dah. Hehehe. Along the day, saya realize, dah lama rupanya saya tak menanges seteruk ini dan berkeadaan huru-hara macam ne. Last time saya macam ne was days before I wrote this entry. October 2010. Lama tu kan? So the thought somehow cheer me up a bit. I was happy for quite sometime and mungkin ini cara Tuhan untuk ingatkan saya, kesedihan dan kekusutan itu tetap akan ada. While dalam keadaan bahagia itu, saya telah lalai and sedikit sebanyak telah mengabaikan tanggungjawab saya. Dalam linangan air mata itu, saya panjatkan syukur sebab Tuhan masih sayang saya dan ingatkan saya tentang kelalaian itu. Hidup ini adil, kita tak kan selamanya berada di atas.

Thanx anyway to friends yang sudi tadah telinga mendengar tangisan saya. Especially Nawar and Floe. Sorry Floe aku ganggu tidur kau. My bad beb~

Nasi dikuis-kuis. Ayam dikorek-korek. Somehow selera makan dah mati. Suku ja nasik masuk lam perut? Aih..sat g kena pegi beli susu nampak nya. Before that, baik pergi solat sebelum Botak datang cari and tambahkan kusut kepala saya. Botak, untuk hari ne ja I beg you to just leave me alone, please? T_T

Ya Allah, I beg for your guidance. Amin~

(^^)y

P/s : walaupun kusut, tapi senyuman itu masih manis.. =)

Everyday-e-yeh!

Semalam tengok TV sambil masak kat dapur, then this iklan comes out. Adoi lah..and the song stuck in my head untill now. Haunting gila. I mean like everytime tengok iklan ne sure cam having a hard time getting the song out of my head. And I dunt mean it's just me. Tengok lah iklan ne, then let's get haunting bersama. 

Everyday-e-yeh~ yeh! yeh! yeh!

Duhhhhh~!!! Shoohhh..!!

Scrub~!

Ola homosapiens! Whoa macam dah lama sangat tak tulis anything kat blog. Asek post lagu jer kan. Gila busy lately. Hope semua orang pon sehat and okai lah ya? so what's new? tak de la ape sangat..still working at the same company, still live in the same house, still using the same phone number but somehow I guess, I am not the same person I am 4 months ago. I am better! Hihi. Nak wish korang Happy New Year pun, maaflah, saya tak sambut new year. Saya sambut Awal Muharram, permulaan kalendar Islam. Tapi apa-apa pun, kepada member-member yang bukan beragama Islam, khususnya yang beragama Kristian, Happy New Year to you~! =)

So entry pertama bagi kalendar Islam 1432 Hijrah dan Kalendar Gregorian tahun 2011 ini akan mencuci sawang-sawang pada blog saya ne. Hehe. It is so bloody dusty with no new entry to clean it up! Ermm, how do you guys celebrate ya? As for me, selalunya Awal Muharram saya akan celebrate with families at Ibu's crib. We will gather and read the end of year and new year doa together and begin the new year with solat maghrib dan isya' berjemaah. Then we will went out and have dinner somewhere. But somehow, out of my ignorant, I missed this year punya Awal Muharram gathering. Huhu~ Felt kinda guilty and sad jugak sebab tak dapat bersama-sama mencari keberkatan untuk tahun baru ne..dan terasa as if macam dah abaikan family. I just hope that there is still a chance for me next year. Insya-Allah~ =)

Ketika minit pertama kalendar Tahun 2011 pulak (24 days after Awal Muharram), masa tu saya baru sampai di Penang with Iliyas and both of us were enjoying eating char kuey tiaw. Since both of us does not really celebrate the Gregorian kalendar punya new year, so kitorang tak de lah beriya nak join the crowd tengok bunga api or whatsoever. It was kinda cool sebab at that moment, showers of fireworks start to rain the sky. From three places, no less. Our table, blessed us, coincidently was at a very strategic place so we had the view of fireworks shot from these 3 different places. From above bumbung-bumbung rumah tu, nampaklah bunga api. It was nice, eating the delicious char kuey tiaw while enjoying the fireworks display. Almost romantic too! Hehe. Until my brother texted me and spoiled the moment by suruh balik cepat. Duhhh~ Yela, nak balik lah ne..haihhh.. -.-"

So with the start of tahun baru, let's become a better person and live our life to the fullest shall we? We only live once, so why live life with regret aight? I am so anticipating what this year got to bring because so far, everything is going on rather fine. Not that I had anything to complain about either. Accept life the way it is and be thankful..I guess that's the key to a happy life. Oh..and I don't really have any new year resolution. I changed mine every ten second because I can't decide which I wanna achieved first. So, whatever-lah~ I make it up by having an ALL YEAR ROUND resolution, not just for new year. Okai kan macam tu? Hee~

Till then, Have a wonderful 1432 Hijrah and year 2011 guys. 

Cheers!

(^^)y

i'm TAG-ED :: Banyak Tanya Betol..!!

so here goes the Questions

Name : Azx / Rena

Full name : Azx Cream Ribena

Sibling(s): 5

Eye colour : MERAH

Shoe size : 5. kecik kan? =P

Hair : Black and proud of it. Straight.

Height : 160cm

What are you wearing right now : Corporate shirt and jeans. Sukati ja p opis pakai jeans.. =P

Favourite number : 11 - 28 - 7 - 5

Favourite drink : Coffee. Coke. Ice lemon tea. Black Tea

Favourite month : November .

Favourite breakfast : heavy. kalo setakat biskut-biskit ne saya tak layan..

.Have you ever.

Broken a bone : never

Been in a police car : never

Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : yeah..sy cepat bosan.. =P

Swam in the ocean : definitely.

Fallen asleep in school : that's a normal thing to do for a student. kan??

Broken someone's heart : unfortunately yes..and still feels guilty over it.. =(

Cried when someone died : yeah..huhu~

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : i just did that last nite. dia call sekali ja pastu tak call dah.huhu~

Saved e-mails : ape pny soklan ne? adoi..

Been cheated on : eh selalu kot..haha~

.What.

Your room look like : what a room suppose to look like

What is right beside you : files

What is the last thing you ate : megi in cup. kari berapi. malam tadi..

.Ever Had.

Chicken pox : penah lah. tak best pon..

Sore throat : penah

Stitches : ohh..yang ne banyak..huhu~

.Do You.

Believe in love at first sight : not really.

Like picnics? : SUKA GILA

.Who.

Who did you last yell at? : myself

Who was the last person you danced with? : my sister

Who last made you smile? : the same person who made me cry

.Final Questions.

What are you listening to right now? : maroon 5 - won't go home without you.

What did you do today? : mandi - opis - masih kat opis

Are you the oldest? : nahh..i'm the second

Indoors or outdoors? : BOTH

.Last person who.

You talked to on the phone ? : Natrah Jamil. Hihi..bangga lah tu~

Made you cry? : the same person who made me smile

You went to the mall with ? : myself

Who cheered you up ? : those who cared

.Have you.

Been to Mexico ? : not interested
Been to USA ? : never

.Random.

What books are you reading right now? : SOLUSI. does dat considered as book?

Best feeling in the world? : to love and to be loved

Future kids name? : err..nanti bila dah kawen baru pikir

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? : haha..patrick is a starfish.so yeahh..i do.

What's under your bed? : the floor?

Favourite sport (s) : SQUASH and Athletics

Favourite place : seaside

Who do you really hate? : people who lied and dishonest

Do you have a job? : YAAAAA~

What time is it now? :2 PM

p/s : with however long it took you to complete this, post as "banyak tanya betul!" and tag 15 people.

Dear Floe: aku dah penat dah jawab. So mari meng-tag orang seterusnya. Ngeh ngeh~

Nat - Alee - Izzat - Tommy - Shamito - Fasyali - Ijad - Mira - Irah - Yaya 

Opps..tak cukup 15. Whatever~

(^^)y

Crappy Blues

And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind..for me it happens all the time.

NO. Scratch that...

Fuck you.Fuck you very-very much..

Nah..scratch that too.

Well when you go, so never think I'll make you turn to stay. And maybe when you get back, I take off to find another way.

When you go, would you even turn to say..I don't love you like I did yesterday.

.....

Would you?

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Poker Face

I may looked like I know nothing, but trust me, I KNOW EVERYTHING~ Well, almost.

Poker face.

i'm TAG-ED :: 25 random facts about Me

3.30pm

Duhh..cam nyesal plak pegi melawat blog Floe sebab that particular entry pasal tag-tag and as usual dia mesti tag saya. Aiyaaa~ Kena buat meh Floe? -.-"

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, fact, habits, or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Okai so here goes some 25 ridiculous fact about Me.

1. Saya suka ketawa. Err..ke tu semua orang dah tahu?
2. First time jumpa, most of the time I am quite reserve and quiet. Once you get to know I guess I am okai~
3. Always being labeled as arrogant and snobbish because most of the time I would mind my own bussiness instead of sibuk-sibuk hal orang. Err..sorry beb, gua tak suka amek port hal orang.
4. A loner. Tak kesah pergi mana-mana sorang-sorang sebab dah biasa. But sometimes, it does feel nice to at least to have orang yang care. Thanx Floe for that.. =)
5. Independent. 
6. Suka makan 
7. I love reading as much as I love sports. Imma nerd and a jock. All in one.
8. People always compliment me for being 'a beauty with brain'. Thank you Allah swt for the wonderful blessing.
9. Always mistaken for a Cindian especially during squash tournament or when jalan-jalan dengan kawan-kawan yang non-malay. Alo, alo..I am Malay.
10. Though nampak macam tough, actually I am a shy person.
11. Usually kalau saya marah, saya akan diam. I have a fiery temper actually..hehe~
12. Mencintai sukan squash secinta-cinta nya~ Cewahhh..ayat tak bleyh blah.. =P
13. I forgive but I do not forget.
14. I love studying. It somehow open my mind towards the wonder of Allah SWT and His creation.
15. Sayang adik-beradik sebab kami susah-senang sama-sama. Tak de orang berani usik adik-adik saya kat sekolah sebab kakak dia garang. Hehe~
16. Wants to be a good wife and a cool mother one day. Insya-Allah~
17. Suka merayap tah mana hala sampai Mama saya tak larat nak risau. No worries Ma, I know how to take care of myself. God will always be with me.. =)
18. A deep thinker. Sebab tu suka kena migraine.
19. My youngest sister call me Fluffy. Nak taw sebab apa? Sila tanya dia sendiri. HAHA.
20. Suka menyanyi, menari, merepek tah pape~
21. Ohh..I once wanted to be a writer/journalist. Still do though..berapa banyak tulis artikel konon nak submit kat Reader's Digest tapi none of it was send. Hihi.
22. Plat number keta saya adalah gabungan tahun dan hari lahir saya.
23. I like RED.
24. Kat sekolah dulu saya budak nakal. Selalu kena rotan+denda.
25. Yesss..FINALLY point yang terakhir. Dah tak tahu nak cakap apa. Ohh.. I love cat. Okai tak tu?

Sekian terima kasih. Ne saat yang paling saya tunggu-tunggu..meng-tag orang balik. Heh~
To : Cik Aliphant, Mr. Tommy, Mr. Shamito, Cik Floe (dia suro tag orang yg tag kita tu kena tag balik kan?), Cik Nat, CIk Dilla, Leman, Izzat..err..ahh, my sweet Fasyali..ermm..dah tak taw nak tag sape dah. Sila lah jawab ya.

(^^)y

Re-Freshing!

6.30pm

Ini lah hasil orang yang banyak kerja tapi tak buat kerja (mati kalo Bos baca ne)..Ta-raaaaaa~ A new template layout. Hehe~ This is not exactly what I had in mind tapi kira okai lah kan. Nak demand lebih-lebih mungkin saya kena create sendiri design blog. Not exactly my style either..hello, ada flower-flower? and butterflies some more? HAHA~ I guess I'm getting soft. But then, it is re-freshing kan? to do something out of ordinary. Selalu template blog saya mesti yang dark..seperti kata Tom 'ala-ala grunge'. Gege~ Whole day saya korek websites cari template. Mesti nampak cam ngah gigih buat kerja kan..dengan dahi kerut-kerut concentrate tengok desktop. Padahal, hanya dinding dan sebaris file dibelakang ne lebih mengetahui. Oh well, silau. Sebab tu kena kerut..Hee~! Okai, masa untuk pulang. Esok week-ends yawww..Yee-haaaaaa~ Mari bergembira~!

Oh, sebab rini tak buat kerja LANSUNG, maka kena buat kerja opis kat rumah.

Whatever~

(^^)y

I.m.a.g.i.n.e

5.40pm

Bayangkan, korang sedang berjalan di satu lorong yang sepi, korang digamit oleh bau yang wangi yang membuatkan korang sukar untuk berlalu dari lorong itu. Tiba-tiba korang ditangkap dan dimasukkan dalam penjara. Tanpa sebab, hanya kerana Si Penangkap merasakan bahawa korang harus ditangkap. Ketika pintu ditutup, Si Penangkap memberitahu bahawa dalam masa 4 bulan lagi korang akan dihukum bunuh. Di dalam penjara yang gelap dan sepi, cuma ada diri sendiri, sejadah dan Al-Quran. Kawan-kawan tidak putus datang melawat dan memberi kata-kata semangat dan perangsang. Namun ada juga yang berkata 'Kan sudah aku ingat kan supaya kau jangan ke lorong gelap itu..kan bagus jika lebih awal kau sedar.Pasti tidak akan jadi begini..'. Pedih. Dengan tiada sebab, diri ditangkap dan dihumban di dalam penjara sepi..menunggu masa hukuman bunuh dijalankan. Pedih bila ungkapan itu dilafazkan kerana diri tidak pernah berniat untuk melakukan sebarang kesalahan sehingga pengakhiran nya adalah begini.

Jika korang dalam situasi itu apa yang akan korang lakukan? Buntu bukan? Seorang diri meratapi nasib diri. Walau di mana mata melihat, yang dapat dijangkau penglihatan hanyalah dinding dan kegelapan.Tiada jalan keluar. Tiada tingkap, tiada cahaya. Air mata pasti mengalir mengenang nasib diri yang malang, yang menjadi mangsa penganiayaan manusia lain.

Jika korang dalam situasi begitu, bagaimanakah perasaan korang? Orang yang disayangi, hanya dapat dilihat untuk terakhir kalinya pada 4 bulan akan datang. Sebelum korang dibunuh. Pasti perasaan nya seperti mahu diminta agar dibunuh pada masa itu juga. Tidak sanggup rasanya menunggu. Namun, masa-masa terakhir tetap dihabiskan di sejadah dan membaca Al-Quran.

Disertai dengan Doa yang tidak putus-putus dipanjatkan kepada Yang Esa, agar kehidupan antara sekarang sehingga ke Hari Kelam, dipermudahkan. Pada masa itu, hanya Dia yang mendengar keluhan dan tangisan serta rintihan hati. Hanya pada Dia kita berserah dan pasrah dan bermohon agar dimudahkan diri meredhai ketentuan ini. Hanya kepada dia kita menyerahkan jiwa dan raga dek kerana tidak sanggup menahan seksaan jiwa dan ketentuan takdir.

Pernahkah korang merasa apa yang cuba saya suruh korang bayangkan? Perasaan terdesak dan hampir putus harapan itu? Perasaan apabila terperangkap di dalam bilik yang gelap dan tiada jalan keluar. Setiap hari memohon agar takdir lebih berpihak kepada diri korang..Pernahkah?

Saya pernah. Tapi saya percaya, Tuhan Yang Maha Esa pasti akan membantu saya. Insya-Allah. 

The Heart

5.30pm

I noticed that the heart is a powerful thing. It can influence the mind to ignore the rationality and obey the emotion. It can caused even the wise to be the stupidest. It can make the world the most wonderful place or one hell of a disastrous space. The heart make the world go round...or not. It make the sun comes up or the sun never shows-up. Depends on the current state of the heart, sometimes the birds will sing sweet song or if they not then maybe thunder or tsunami will be on its way. Fascinating isn't it?

The heart is a powerful thing. It can make you believe the illusion to be the reality. It can turn lies into truth. It can turn sorrow into happiness (and vice versa). It can make you go insane for debating with what the heart believe is right and what you believe is not. It can be deadly. Especially when it aches, especially when every vein is fuel with this black thing called hatred, where only the mind can control the heart from getting overboard. That is, if you have a strong mind. Do you?

But then, the heart is also a beautiful thing. It house this sweet thing called love. It is rare and only a few has ever found it, and it is more powerful than the heart itself. If you ever find it, then guard it. Do not let anybody steal it away from you. It might not be sweet all the time but it is, most of the time. Why?

When the mind collide with the heart, thus comes the doubt. Do you have doubt in what you did? Then it might not be the right thing. Because like what I said before, the heart is a powerful thing. It believes what it wanted. Even when what the mind perceive as illusion, the heart still believes what it wanted. Even when it's a lie..

Wednesday Blues

Hari Isnin, saya masuk opis lambat (macam biasa), on PC, cucuk external and turns-out external saya wosak. Bengang? Eh tadelah..seronok! Dalam external tu ada semua data saya and kerja saya. Dah 6 bulan saya kumpul data tu semua. Owh, saya tade buat back-up pon sume kerja saya yang ada dalam external tu. Bijak kan?
Huuu..sedeyh~~

Dah bagi IT exec, Incik N check..tapi dia cakap external hard disc saye dah corrupt. Marah nye saya sebab dia bagi saya external tu pon mmg dah tak elok in the first place. Sedih sebab kerja saya yang latest semua ada dalam tu.Uhuks..bos nak tengok progress hari Khamis..Macam mana lah ne?? =(
Omaigad~ matilah kalo nak buat balek semua tu. Huuu~ Sedeyh~


Whole day mood saya memang lah sangat foul. I was cracking my brain cari penyelesaian macam mana nak uncorrupt kan external yang dah corrupt. Macam mana ya? Ahh..kusut nye! Mujur Bos saya, memahami. Terima kasih Bos! =(
Huuu~ Sedeyh~

Kemudian, someone throw me a lifeline. Dia akan cuba dapatkan balik data dalam external tu. Will try his best. Saya x mengharap sangat..tapi..a small hope is better than no hope at all. Kan? Barulah rasa macam bleyh senyum sket.
Terima kasih Si Penyelamat.. =)

Hari Selasa, saya bangun lambat-lambat. Sebenarnya, dah terjaga awal tapi saya xda mood nak pergi ofis. Kalo pergi ofis pon, most of kerja dah lost. Macam tak taw nak start balek dari mana. Tak kan nak start from scratch? Alahai..down giler rase~ And hari Selasa, saya masuk ofis lebih lewat dari biasa. Tunjuk perasaan lah konon..~ Sape suro bagi external wosak kat saya kan?

Hari ne hari Rabu..Si Penyelamat dah cuba tapi first attempt gave negative result. Huuu~ Sedeyh~
Tapi dia cakap nanti akan cuba lagi. Tak pelah, saya faham dia pon busy jugak dengan kerja dia. Hope began to diminish..tapi saya masih keep hoping and keep having faith in him. Saya nak cakap 'Awak please try your best and don't let me down' tapi it's too much to ask from someone kan? X pelah~ Dalam hati hope began to wilt..


Tadi saya dah dapat berita, bahawa hard disc tu x dapat recover balek no matter what software he used.
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Saya speechless. Saya terus balek and bila masuk dalam kereta, apa lagi kan, hujan ribut petir lah~ I cried my heart out. Wuuuuu~ Sedeyh~ Nak salah kan sape? Sendiri pun salah, tapi lagi damn yang tukang bagi hard disc sebab saya suruh beli baru hari tu dia x nak, siap bagi statement mencabar kesabaran. Hmm..x pelah saya redha, anggap saja ne dugaan saya di bulan Ramadhan..Tuhan nak uji kesabaran saya dan tahap keredhaan saya.. =)

Macam mana marah pun, kena selalu ingat, sabar itu kan separuh daripada iman. Sekian, Thank you.

P/s : Entry ne saya tulis hari Rabu tapi hari ne baru sempat publish. Hee~ Peace.

Welcome Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Hey guys, diam tak diam kita Ramadhan tiba lagi. Sy nak mengucapkan Selamat Manjalani Ibadah Berpuasa to all my friends and readers. Semoga kita semua dapat memanfaatkan kedatangan Ramadhan kali ini dengan sepenuhnya dan beroleh keberkatan dari Nya Yang Mencipta. Tiada apa yang kita mahukan dalam hidup ini selain dari keredhaan Ilahi, jadi di sini, sepuluh jari sy susun sebagai memohon kemaafan andai ada salah dan silap, terlanjur tutur kata, terkasar bahasa dan perbuatan yang menyakitkan hati. Semoga dengan kemaafan semua, Ramadhan ini menjadi lebih bermakna dan membahagiakan buat kita bersama.. Insya-Allah. Amin~

Have a wonderful Ramadhan everybody! Cheers~

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Mid-day Blues

12pm

I stared at the blank post body..wondering what I should write (No I aint having any writter's block or what-so-ever) and nothing jump in my mind. Actually so many things jump in that I'm having trouble distincting one topic to another, everything is significant. Everything is as important as the others. Yeah. Life seems to pick up at world record speed, like a MagLev bullet-train with the speed of 581 km/h surfing on the superconductor based rail. The gravity seems to lessen from 9.81m/s to somewhat half, leaving me floating and bouncing with no firm feet on the ground. Everything seems to be going at a very high momentum but with only magnitude and no direction and they flies me by without I couldn't even say 'Heyya!'.. When I woke up the next morn, the memories of last night is a blur. Then life move again. Here we go again..~

Where have the vector of my life went? C'mon direction, do not abandon me just yet. I'm barely 40 okai.. Yeah. Life is a bit dis-array..but I like it now more than I like it then. It is kinda confusing but I guess confusing is better than bitter. Confused means you can't make up your mind whether you feel happy or sad or so-so. Bitter means..well, bitter. And bitter ain't cool, it gives you wrinkles. What is there left to do then? Enjoy the moment I guess, eventually I will know when to pull back and reduce the velocity to a constant speed and yes, re-thinking the direction. The vector of life.

Any-one got a route map or GPS for rent?

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