Raster Rawr : Oblivious-is-me

10 am






When all around you are confusion and corrupted people whom have been doomed into the  condemnation of corrupted soul, for letting themselves being corrupted by the blasphemy of $$$,


Be Oblivious.

p/s : I was just exaggerating. No, they aren't a condemned corrupted soul. They are hard working people who deserve to be getting a fat bonus this year whilst I am just this one lazy coolie with headphones and oblivious about the rat race. Err, internet tak ada so tak leh buat kerja. Hiks!

Post Sunday Blues

2.45pm

Sedang menghadap PC sambil makan nasik lauk ayam goreng dan sayur campur. With no nafsu at all. Baru saya perasan, semalam seharian saya tak makan. Kusut punya pasal..saya lupa saya nak pegi Sg. Gabai dengan member-member. Pagi ne datang ofis kepala macam berpusing-pusing. Huhu. And sepantas kilat (cewahh..kilat tu!), saya taw dah, ne sure blood pressure saya low. Datang ofis pun dah lewat, overslept punya pasal and honestly, I wish I didn't come at all sebab makin kusut. Hmm..nasik dalam polystrene dikuis-kuis..yang masuk mulut tak sampai separuh pun. Thanx Nawar and Syira sebab tolong belikan nasik ne. I really appreciate it.. =)

Saya tak taw apa yang patut saya lakukan sekarang berkenaan dengan perkara yang mengusutkan ini. I called my friends, offering them no explaination what-so-ever as of why I am crying cam ribut di telefon. Granted my housemate were not around and lagilah macam nak gila sorang-sorang di rumah. Macam susah ja nak explain kekusutan itu..the most when they asked me what is wrong, saya senyap and cried again. Sebab, I don't know how to explain in details and pour my heart out. So I pour my eyes out saje lah..Huhuhu~ Sampai bengkak macam mata katak dah. Hehehe. Along the day, saya realize, dah lama rupanya saya tak menanges seteruk ini dan berkeadaan huru-hara macam ne. Last time saya macam ne was days before I wrote this entry. October 2010. Lama tu kan? So the thought somehow cheer me up a bit. I was happy for quite sometime and mungkin ini cara Tuhan untuk ingatkan saya, kesedihan dan kekusutan itu tetap akan ada. While dalam keadaan bahagia itu, saya telah lalai and sedikit sebanyak telah mengabaikan tanggungjawab saya. Dalam linangan air mata itu, saya panjatkan syukur sebab Tuhan masih sayang saya dan ingatkan saya tentang kelalaian itu. Hidup ini adil, kita tak kan selamanya berada di atas.

Thanx anyway to friends yang sudi tadah telinga mendengar tangisan saya. Especially Nawar and Floe. Sorry Floe aku ganggu tidur kau. My bad beb~

Nasi dikuis-kuis. Ayam dikorek-korek. Somehow selera makan dah mati. Suku ja nasik masuk lam perut? Aih..sat g kena pegi beli susu nampak nya. Before that, baik pergi solat sebelum Botak datang cari and tambahkan kusut kepala saya. Botak, untuk hari ne ja I beg you to just leave me alone, please? T_T

Ya Allah, I beg for your guidance. Amin~

(^^)y

P/s : walaupun kusut, tapi senyuman itu masih manis.. =)

Still Here?

4.30am

Korang dah tidow? I'm still here at the office. Tonite is yet malam paling lewat balik selama sy start kerja at this company. Most probably won't go home till Subuh nanti. Hmmm..Tonnes of work is yet to be settled. Huuu~ Sampaikan Ester and Floe tak percaya saya betol-betol busy sebab tak reply komen kat FB.. Percaya sudah ko Tot aku busy after receiving stress call petang tadi? Haha..

I'm having extreme exhaustion as tonite dah 3 hari berturut-turut stay back..tapi tak pe. Me and my kental-ness can overtake anything, Insya-Allah.. =) Thank you Allah SWT for giving me limitless patience and strength. Where everyone else bail, You give me strength to carry on and keep going against almost every obstacles and every currents. Alhamdulillah. Please bless me Ya Allah with lots of happiness and properity, and please forgive my sins and give me more strength to keep going. Amin.

Better get back to work now..Work hard, Play hard. End of July nak pergi roadtrip lagi! For now, kerja dengan ikhlas dan happy even though letih gila. Hehe..

Cheers! 

(^^)Y

Mid-nite Blues

It was already 1.30am and I was still awake. Wide awake. Damn, esok sure I’m gonna have a hard time waking up for Subuh prayer. It was getting harder to sleep these days, must be because of the heat..or maybe because of the bed itself (sometimes while rolling around at nite, I could feel the damn spring cucuk-cucuk behind my back and trust me, it was not comfortable.. T_T ). It has been a while since I last wrote anything serious in here. I guess when you are happy, you are too content with life to start bitching about everything in general and your life, in particular. So now, since I already start writing back, you guys can assume that I am unhappy, bitchy.. Owh and got a lot of spare time. Hahaha.. Kidding je! Nah, I am content with life..because I got a chance to start over. I got two cool housemate, which at first I dreaded I wouldn’t get along with.. but suprisingly, I do. Splendidly! Alhamdulillah.. =) Sometimes, you have to drag me out of the house because I had so much fun cooking dinner, laughing and watching TV with them or just doing my office work. Even Sunway Pyramid doesn’t tempt me that much and the bloody lion is just across the street (partly because I’m flat broke jugak..haha). Oh well, the lion ain’t going nowhere after all..tunggulah gaji masuk nanti! Hee~ Wipe that surprised look outta your face eh. Yeah, I am getting domesticated and God knows since when..hehe. I remember I used to be so restless that staying at home sounds impossible. Mesti nak merayap shopping mall, jalan-jalan, karoke, bowling or at least went jogging or playing squash or swimming. I missed going to arcade and played ice-hockey or foosball with my buddies (yeah..I liked that stupid arcade game, mind you IT IS FUN! So what? Bwuek! =P ) I kinda missed being out and about but for the time being, I just wanna enjoy my current phase. Life just seems, not empty. More colourful and full of laughter and I couldn’t have wish for a better life. I had fun adapting. Plus, I am still recovering from ‘the wound’ and hmm.. socializing and meeting new people seems tedious. I just wanna be with those whom I am familiar with, who knows me and wouldn’t hesitate to give me a hug whenever I need some, who won’t judge me or pry into my life and let me take my time to be the restless me again, with slight urging but not too forceful. Sometimes being invisible makes me sane.. and this new place, gives me that sanity. Finally, after all this years, I AM INVISIBLE.. and I just wanna enjoy it a bit. Imagine my relief.. =)

I met new friends, but kinda sad I lost one who has been kinda close, caring and helpful. We had good laugh with each other and he did help me knowing my way around. I guess wounded bird need each other but unfortunately, they shouldn’t fly together. Because once one recovered, it has a tendency to leave the other. Or vice versa.. One got to be the living proof of a rebound afterall. Ouucchhh~ Yeah, it does sting a bit..can't pretend it doesn't couldn't I? Owh well, I wish him well and hope he find the happiness he is seeking. Thank you, for everything. I dunno if there's any chance of us being friends again but Insya-Allah, who knows? God has plan for everyone right?  =)

I like to talk in metaphore didn’t I? haha.. Soon I’m gonna make you guys bored your jaws start dropping to the floor just by reading the first sentence.. Hehehe.. Actually, I’m in the middle of doing some office work so..gotta resume my work back. The company paid me good money not for nothing..duhh~ Gotta work hard to achieve my dreams. Fightoooo!! Err..no I ain't getting married anytime soon. Duhh~ T_T

Gudnite homosapiens. Cheers! *wink*

P/s : Cooked nasik goreng today for Cik Nad because dia saket pewot..ada lebih esok boleh bawak p opish! Hee~ =)

Dys-functional Monday Blues

Semalam hari Isnin..saye bangun lambat.Hurmm...~
Padan muke.Sape suro week-end bangun lambat-lambat..kan dah ter-biase.

Pakai kemeja baru yang Wanne beli kan..Semua org puji cantik..wee~Baju kaler hijau.Sebab dah malas nak beli baju sendiri.Asek amek kaler same jeee..
Thanx Wanne.Pasne bleh lantik ko jadi personal shopper aku.Kikikiii~

Nak buat air..tapi air panas asek habis. Saye perlukan caffeine to stay sane and awake.Huwaaaa~
Semua org tibe-tibe nak bancuh air pagi ne agak nye??

Tengah hari..hujan turun lebat gile.Kitorang stranded kat Kedai Kak Nor.Hari tuh kat Pyramid..Haihhh~
Hmmm..hujan lagi..kat sana hujan jugak ke?

Bila hujan pasti teringat pada si dia.
Apekah dia pon ingat saye? Ahaa..fat chance!

Tak balik lagi dah ade orang ajak dinner same..Wah!
Hmm..baiklah..Dari sayu makan sorang-sorang kat rumah..kan?~

Petang hujan masih turun.Cane nak balik neh??
Sila beli payung ye Cik Azx..atau kalo dah kaya sangat, angkat je Neo CPS sebijik esok.

Dalam hujan saye dan Nad berjalan..tibe-tibe nampak kereta itu..hmmmm... *windu* =(
Hello..bukan dia sorang je pakai kereta tuh kat Malaysia ne Cik Azx! Biase kan diri ye..

Sebab pakai baju baru, asek kene puji plak cantik..sedikit riak bersarang dalam diri. Hmm..sekali bila sampai kat komuter UKM..baru la perasan kan, zip seluar tak tutup..Hmmm..~ Bongok gile! *blushing*
Double-triple damn..suke sangat kan buat kije macam neh? Tukar kije jadi flasher je la..Huhu..Riak sangat, padan muke saye! Xmau dah suro Wanne beli kan bajuuuu.. (tibe-tibe Wanne kene blame..haha)

Moral of the story : Every-time kluar toilet, jangan lupe check zip seluar!

12.45am Blues

At Ibu's.

Today is Wina's birthday..
Happy Birthday kiddo!! sok pagi kite men Wii sampai lebam okai? hehe..

Yesterday Punchu+Maksu left for Makkah, fulfilling Rukun Islam ke-5, menunaikan haji.
safe tip my dearest Uncle, may God bless you *sob sob*

I cut my hair short. The last time its short was back when i was in First year degree, 2nd sem.I broke up with my then-bf..
Huh..trasformation out of rebelliousness.Tapi err..cane nak men squash nanti tah..xbese rambut pendek..

I dyed my hair burgundy.My hair was jet black (and i'm very proud of it)
Nasib xde kaler merah or hijau..or biru..i once dyed it RED.

I'm having my navel pierce
Acah mak enon..hehe..nak kene bunuh ngan mama?

My grandparents are here.Mama, Anys and Boy too.So do Cik Lan and Yazar.Heaven..is when families are together and family drama arises occasionally..hee~
Hoorayy..mish 'em damn a lot

I'm through with LIES
Hmmm....

I am searching..for my self..which was lost when i met you.

......

I am sleepy.Damn.Dead bodies everywhere.. (bak kata Cik Lan when he is referring to my kazens yang tidoq merata-rata)..Where am i s'pose to bunk in now? Sheeesshhhhhh~ tido bersepah ar dorang neh!!
Nasib baik umah ibu..bloody huuuuugggeeeee~ tidoq ngan Anys ar..Zzzz~

*it was already 1.11am*

Tuesday blues

Hmm...

Boleh x? Pagi ini bangun lambat. Then..Pakai baju salah butang..meaning..butang masok salah lubang.So baju jadi terangkat sebelah.Macam Pak Uda cerita Pi Mai Pi Mai Tang Tu..
Dah half way pergi kerja baru perasan dia terangkat sebelah. Hello..dalam LRT cane nak betol kan! Demmit.Kat Komuter nanti kene pergi betolkan.On the way to the bloody station..berapa orang pulak dah nampak saya pakai baju terangkat sebelah?Argghhh.

Demmit.Double demmit.Triple Demmit.

Selalu lah..macam ne! Eeeeeeiiii...~

*blushing*

Hmm..

Kalo kita windu owg, cane eh nak buat bagi ilang windu tuh?

Jap-jap..owg tuh windu ke kat awk masalahnye?

Tak taw la..kene ke die windu saya baru saya boleh windu dia?

Haihh..Buang masa je windu owg yang x windu kite...faham?Dah..gi kasik sperma,err,ikan, makan..

Owh..erm..hmm..okai..hmm..sperma owh sperma..makan banyak-banyak.. (x ikhlas)

*sedih : gundah-gulana*

..Masih rindu..